Back pain benefits & beliefs

Beliefs are extremely powerful. And can shape and form all aspects of your life.

I wrenched my back recently. I do self-healing, but this back pain just didn't want to budge. After a few days of barely walking, it got somewhat better. But there still was that general aching and a specific spot that hurt when I moved a certain way. A day or so of that, and I got tired of dealing with it. I decided it was time the problem went away. Since it had healed somewhat, I knew I could heal the rest and expected it to do so. After a bit of mentally fumbling, I am now on the road to recovery.

Explanation:

I've had this back pain happen before I learned self-healing, and the result was chiropractors, and an ultimate of changing of careers due to this pain. So this time I had that worry (edging towards a belief) that something was so wrong I couldn't heal it. (I'm getting older now, and ppl say that's what happens.) I got the phone number for a chiropractor just in case, and kept trying to heal it myself. But I wasn't able to (belief proven).

Since I have had various back pains that I have healed, I knew that in time it would correct itself. And for the most part, it did (belief proven).

Then there was the lingering occasional irritation of pain while getting up from sitting. There was this defining moment where I knew I could keep feeling the pain or make it go away. There was subconscious thoughts going on making this decision: do I stay a victim to the pain and continue with all the attention I was getting from my back pain, or just get rid of it and get back to my life as I know it? Consciously, I decided to get rid of it, and just expected it to be gone. And for the most part, it has left. (See update at end)

Now, the core belief --the belief that supersedes all of this--is an internal struggle between the common belief that getting older creates more pains, body deterioration, and physical ailments vs. this is JUST a belief and not a truth. Peer pressure is very powerful, and I hate to admit that the former belief is a little bit more prevalent. I struggle with that now.

I wish the world would believe in self-healing, but they don't seem to. Sometimes it feels like I'm out here alone, rejected when I tell someone I do self-healing and/or suggest that they, too, can heal themselves. They don't want to hear about it, they are stuck in their belief, trying to prove it. *Sigh*

UPDATE: My back ache kicked back in a bit and I went in mentally to see what was going on with it.  I realized that I was at the critical line of beliefs…I could give in to common thought and just be the victim of my back, and all that comes with it (peer acceptance, peer attention, the feeling that I am 'normal' by the standards of common beliefs, coupled with the fact that life as I know it would be over, that I would no longer be self-sufficient, that I wouldn't be able to care for my animals, etc.) OR, I could heal it.  I decided I would heal it. I had to then express and release the fear of not being able to heal it, the fear that it was too powerful for me to handle. And then I laughed at that thought!  Nothing is too powerful for my mind.  The decision was made.  My back is much better today.